Undateable Me

So after he sends the text I am very curious as to what he meant. Was he saying he is crazy to be asking me out again? So I call and he spills his big idea. His idea is for us to change our facebook statuses and say that we are in a relationship with one another. I start cracking up because I think it's a great idea since everyone keeps calling us on everything we say and do. When I accepted the request the firestorm ensued. First no one believed but then after a few days they started thinking about it. Some did believe and said congrats. Now remember this is on my main page so ALL my family and friends could see this so I had some explaining to do to some people and tell them that it was a practical joke. Now what I wasn't expecting was his mother's opinion. Now let me briefly go back and tell you a back story. This guy is my brother n laws cousin, so people love to say that we are family even though we clearly are not. So when his mother saw it she immediately called him a vetoed me. She said she remembered me...when I was 8 and she has seen me around at some holiday parties. He didn't ask a reason why but I soon figured it out after talking to my sister. Turns out my sister and she do not have the greatest of family relationships. They both don't really say much to one another when they see one another, so therefore an opinion has been made. My sis even said no, but I told her he and I have nothing to do with their issues, that is if we decided to actually date. Therefore he made me undateable even though he keeps telling me how much he wants to. As for the other message, he asked me to his office Christmas party. Of course I accepted his invitation. After doing so the women around him started to look at him a bit differently.

The Meeting

So there is a guy that I know. We are constantly harrassing one another. Day in and day out to the point where our friends will start things just to have us going back and forth like a married couple. So we decided to go out. Now it was and wasn't a date. He wanted to go to this restaurant because he wanted to know what food they hand before his Christmas party this past weekend. So he picked me up and we had dinner. Great conversation and our weird sense of humor made the evening fun. After dinner we went to local bar which has $1 shots. We tossed back a few, laughed at people and chit chatted. When he brought me home we sat in his car and talked for another 2+ hours. This dude even had the nerve to stroke my hair, almost making me fall asleep. Then he admired my hand. Actually is was a nice meeting. The next day he woke me up witht he text, "I'm about to do something crazy", "Can I take you out this weekend?"

~Tiff

Am I Getting Bored

Ok the guy that I have been seeing is great, I don't think I can say it enough.  Though I for some unforeseen reason feel like I am getting bored.  I was fine not having anything define what we were, but part of me wants something more.  It seems that he has kicked any extras to the curb to be with me since he spends his off days with me and when he is not talking to me on the phone, he is sleeping or at work, but who really knows.  I think I am wanting more and I am not sure if he is the guy that can give me that more, especially since he is saying he doesn't want anymore children and I don't want to lose my chance if I decide I do.
I had a chat with one of my best friends today and she reminded me that marriage and relationships are hard.  She said that she is met with temptation everyday and has to really remind herself.  She said that it's a tedious job and she finds herself wondering why she got married.  She loves her husband and has no want to cheat or to leave but some parts of being single never go away.  We are all human and look but have to remember not to touch. 

The Other One That's On My Mind

Ok I broke up with my ex like 8 months ago.  Actually we never actually broke up we just stopped talking completely which sums up to breaking up.  And still I am "Officially Missing You".  Everyday something brings him to the forefront of my mind and it drives me nuts.  I am so trying to get past him but for some reason I can't.  Thank goodness I don't actually ever have to see him but his presence is felt daily.  There are no pictures or gifts to remind me of him, just some random thing.  A candy bar, someone driving a truck like his and saying my sons name which is he same as his (no he's not my kids dad). 

QUESTION: How Do You Ever Truly Get Over Someone?  Is It Even Possible?

A Life Moment

I just had a life moment with the guy that has had a piece of me is having a baby with his wife.  He didn't even tell me.  It's not like we are running around cheating or anything we just have that friendship that is always questioned by everyone.  I found out by looking at a facebook page of a mutual friend and I saw his wifes name and her baby bump.  You can say that I was somewhat devastated when I saw it.  I know that I am not in love with him but still it cut me deep.  I don't know what to do about someone who tells me everything but not the one most important thing going on in their life.  Not to mention the fact that he keeps talking about lost love on facebook which trips me out.  It was almost with every update was an underlying love question and it was driving me nuts.  I really don't think I can just kick him to the curb because I love thinking of him as the guy that got away.  Oh what to do, what to do.  Things could be so much easier.

3 Weeks

It had been a total of 3 weeks since I had seen the guy that I am semi kinda dating.  We haven't established any names for our relationship and I am perfectly fine with that.  I could tell that he was really missing me while I was on vacation because he was calling me constantly and leaving me messages all day long.  He even said on the day basis how much he missed me.  He said he just wanted to see that smile on my face.  When I came back on Monday he was hoping to see me but I had things to do so I had to put him off.  Yesterday rolled around and he pleaded with me to drive to see him.  I obliged and had a good time as usual.  It was quite different to be in his home and see his things.  I finally got to see pictures of him as a kid and all of the things that makes him, well him.  Part of me would like to see this go farther but a part of me isn't remotely interested in him.  There are times that I do roll my eyes when I see the phone ringing, but there are also moments of excitement when I hear his voice.  I know I am certifiably crazy to be complaining or even even unsure about any of this.  You can understand why I am a hot chocolatey mess.

Peace, Love and Chocolate
Tiffany